{"product_id":"acts-of-desperation","title":"Acts of Desperation","description":"\u003cp\u003eLove was the final consolation, would set ablaze the fields of my life in one go, leaving nothing behind. I thought of it as a force which would clean me and by its presence make me worthy of it. There was no religion in my life after early childhood, and a great faith in love was what I had cultivated instead. Oh, don't laugh at me for this, for being a woman who says this to you. I hear myself speak. Even now, even after all that took place between us, I can still feel how moved I am by him. Ciaran was that downy, darkening blond of a baby just leaving its infancy. He was the most beautiful man I had ever seen. None of it mattered in the end; what he looked like, who he was, the things he would do to me. To make a beautiful man love and live with me had seemed - obviously, intuitively - the entire point of life.\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Vintage","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":57577657368950,"sku":"9781529113013","price":8.99,"currency_code":"GBP","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0525\/9857\/1159\/files\/9781529113013.jpg?v=1774784209","url":"https:\/\/bookbag.mom\/products\/acts-of-desperation","provider":"Bookbag Bookshop","version":"1.0","type":"link"}